If you are like me, you forgot what day it is. If you are also like me, you've been on the struggle bus a time or two (or ten) the past week or two.
Last week was my birthday, and every single person in my life - including all of you - did everything they could to make the day awesome. And it was pretty great, all things considered. And I am incredibly grateful for that. But at the end of the day, I realized it would be the first time in 42 years I didn't see my mom for my birthday - we're all sheltered in place. Truth is, I don't know when I'll get to hug my mom again. And that realization brought grief to me in a way I had yet to experience.
Now, I don't tell you this for any other reason than to let you know that YOU are not alone. I'm guessing you've had some grief these past few weeks. Maybe you have a kiddo that had a birthday with an interrupted celebration, maybe you have a sick loved one you can't be there for, maybe you just miss wine nights with your girlfriends. Lord knows I miss THAT!
And I'm guessing that you, just like me, have actually felt BAD for grieving or feeling sad. Because, others have it way worse than we do, am I right? Well sure...of course they do. For sure, I know so many of you lost your parents years ago, and you'd do anything to be able to pick up the phone right now and hear their wisdom and strength in such an uncertain time. Who am I not to be grateful for that?
Hear me when I say this...YOU can grieve the loss of even the most trivial piece of your life WITHOUT ignoring the enormous blessings you are surrounded with OR lacking empathy for those who are suffering greatly. It's okay to simply miss your normal life, and it's okay to cry for it.
Every single feeling you have during this crazy time of life is completely FINE. Don't shame yourself here - just lean into the suck of it all. And if you don't listen to or read my girl Brene Brown - get on with it. You're welcome.
So, babe, this too shall pass. I don't know when, and I sure as hell don't know what it will look like when it does, but I promise you, IT WILL PASS. In the meantime, know that you aren't alone, and anytime you just aren't sure what to do next, or you just need a shoulder to cry on, you know where to find me.
Hang in there sisters...brighter days are coming.